Enlightened....

There are many times in life where we get bogged down, where we find ourselves literally trying to breath.  For me, a couple weeks ago, I had a HUGE anxiety attack that laid me FLAT out on the floor... I think that being pregnant, and feeling so much anxiety, has made me realize I need to do some reavaluating on what is really important...and what I KNOW matters most.... I find me judging myself based on...what people think of me, of choice I've made, things I have done! I find myself overwhelmed with the realization of a being who wants me to believe these things, who wants me to self distruct...so he might have Master over me.
The sad part is I KNOW what I should care about....who I am...what I believe....and what I know to be true and not true. Today as I was looking through a favorite Blog...I found this testimony and I had to share it.  It made me see that others struggle...other fight to breath and fight to STAND!
I have Faith in a Father of miracles, of mercy, and love.  He is kind and HE is JUST!  He is the only one that we have to answer to....good or bad. He knows each of us...even if we don't know Him. And regaurdless of how far we find ourselves from Him...He is ever near...waiting!
I hope you enjoy her feelings on being Restored!

fuN...FuN...fUn....

We love our weekend together.  This weekend we made Valentine Note Holders.  All the kids have already been busy at work putting special notes in eachothers Hearts.

We didn't get as much time this weekend....so we wanted to make sure to fill the time we did get, so we decided to take the kids swimming.  It was so much fun to get out of the house and have space to move and play and be loud.  I really am SO excited to be moving to a house in 2 short months, and have room and a yard, and a play room, and new rooms to paint, and new things to decorate!!!  I'm a LITTLE giddy!!!! :O)

Poor B got stuck with all 5 kids going around and around and around.  Luckily he and Sister got to sneak away and have some special round and round and round time :O)  She didn't want to stop!

AND....that little bump poking out didn't get noticed by the kids...good thing cuz' we are not telling them  for the next month and hopefully tell them when we find out WHAT IT IS!!!!

(boy, boy, boy? crossing fingers...but I guess I could handle ANOTHER princess)

Could it seriously be possible to have 5 princess's?

Then off to Krispy Kreme for a HOT FRESH donut. The kids thought it was So cool to watch the donuts be made. And then of course they all were in heaven when they bit into a fresh glazed donut. :O)

We had so much fun!  Just excited to have them all together more! I sure do love these kids!!!!

MORE TIME TOGETHER!

We are so lucky that we were able to trade Saturdays, (with my kids dad) so the kids could have some time each week together. During the school year it's hit and miss with some of the kids...so they only get to really see eachother when we have a special occasion. So we are SO grateful that now we will have MORE time all together.
I am grateful for the love I feel when we have both sets individually and all together. This past Saturday we talked about goals, and taught the kids what a goal was and how you make one. They all set goals...which included "learning about snakes, learning my letters, reading better, saying prayers by myself at night, earning a webkinz." They all impressed me with what they wanted to do better at, and what they wanted to learn. Then we went and played at McDonalds... they played for hours, and had so much fun together. :O)

New Years Week

We had SUCH a fun week with all of B's family. It was PACKED, busy, and a little stressful, but honestly SO much fun! The kids had a blast together and with all of their cousins, and it was fun for me to really get to know B's Family. Here are some pictures to give you a FAST catch up, and then I will update each of the kids individual blogs with what their favorite things were!

Aunt Amy was Jealous of Babes..."Self-inflicted-black-eye" The girl is lucky she didn't loose her eye!

Bobster was the ONLY one in our family to make it till Midnight, and little Char Char!

Grandpa Lundell took us all sledding up to Snow Basin and the kids built a snowman. We had so much fun all week, and I seriously am surprised i personally made it! 5 kids is a CRAZY LIFE, but it's ours and I wouldn't change it! I am so excited we will start to have every other Saturday together! Love you all!!!!

Merry Christmas!!!! And I can't wait for a NEW YEAR!

My Little Pony's

NOT TO BRAG!!!!...but I went to DI on Christmas Eve, because I HOPED I would find lots of Pony's for Christmas...."21"...count them!!!! YIPPEE, and all for the SMALL price of $3.00
So today on CHRISTMAS, I have been doing all their hair so the girls have something to play with all next week. Having 4 girls and "back and forth" toys, we can't keep much here for all of them...SO I am starting to collect Pony's that will STAY at our house, and hopefully become a FUN things for all of them...(poor Ben) SORRY Sharla, don't be Jell!

Hope....

I drove to Pocatello today to spend the afternoon with two of my sisters, we went to DI, and Harbor Freight...it was fun just to go for a drive and see them and drive home. It is in this time of driving alone that I most contemplate life, where I'm at, and where I'd like to be! A time to talk to my Father in Heaven and try to listen to what He would have me do to improve. So as I listened to random talks from General Conference this year and last, I was so impressed with Pres. Dieter F. Uchtdorf talk entitled "The Infinite Power of Hope." I have loved hearing his stories and how he relates what ever topic he might have, but some of my favorite quotes from this talk are as follows:
~"Hope... is like the beam of sunlight rising up and above the horizon of our present circumstances. It pierces the darkness with a brilliant dawn. It encourages and inspires us to place our trust in the loving care of an eternal Heavenly Father, who has prepared a way for those who seek for eternal truth in a world of relativism, confusion, and of fear."
~"Hope is not knowledge, but rather the abiding trust that the Lord will fulfill His promise to us. It is confidence that if we live according to God’s laws and the words of His prophets now, we will receive desired blessings in the future. It is believing and expecting that our prayers will be answered. It is manifest in confidence, optimism, enthusiasm, and patient perseverance."
~"The things we hope in sustain us during our daily walk. They uphold us through trials, temptations, and sorrow. Everyone has experienced discouragement and difficulty. Indeed, there are times when the darkness may seem unbearable. It is in these times that the divine principles of the restored gospel we hope in can uphold us and carry us until, once again, we walk in the light."

I love listening and re listening to General Conference. To these men and women called of God, to lift us up and help us overcome. I have a Testimony of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. I know it is the true church on the earth today. That we have a Father in Heaven who loves us all the same, no matter where we are at in life. I know we have a Savior, Jesus Christ, who died for us, that He truly bore the weight of all sin, pain, and affliction. That He knows how each of us feels and is waiting for us to come unto Him. I know that we have a living Prophet, Thomas S. Monson, who leads and directs our church in Faith and Righteousness. I know that we can have our Families Forever. I know and am thankful for the Priesthood of God in the earth, and I am grateful for those men who hold it and honor it, and ever strive to be worthy of it. I believe in Missionary work, and have seen and felt it's lasting impressions through my parents who served and my Youngest Brother, Eli, who is currently serving in England. I know that if we put our Faith and Hope in God, He will help us, He will lift us, He will heal us. I am grateful to know the truth, to have had parents that shared the Truth, and that taught and showed how to live it, in all they did and do. Thank you to those of you who ever remind me of the way back. Who encourage, love, and lift. You are true disciples of this Gospel, and you exemplify of Our Savior, and what He truly taught. I love you! And hope my simple and growing testimony is felt and known.

It is my HOPE to hear your Testimonies!
~Loves